A look into the prison of social phobia and the self loathing caused by the mental illness. The person continues to try to leave the safety of their prison of self exclusion but is faced with frustration, anxiety, and sorrow, because of the restraints they placed on themselves from their fear of the outside world.

Words hurt don't they? Hearing the same words over and over can be magical and it can cut deep inside the mind, body and spirit. Will trying to forgive and forget those that have caused the injury using the same repetitive method make it heal? Make it disappear? Will it all go away? Will erasing the memory clean the slate? And even if you do it do you really mean? All the words that are said to me stay in my memory. I'll pretend to forget because they are just words... Aren't they?

My third video ever. I talked about my 6 biggest crushes ranging from at least 3 months to nine years in length. The video has a few conceptual and stylistical problems. Despite that, I think it was a pretty good effort. I think one of the most interesting things about this video was that people didn't believe the stories were true stories. Truth is much weirder than fact. Also, a fellow artist parodied my work: the blue umbrella of doom. It made me laugh. I had to lower the quality a lot to put it on Youtube.